I wanna off someone!!!

[Chimera[NL]]

GODDAMNIT!!! I wanna kill my parents......they are out of their fucking minds now! I was busy photoshopping and all of the sudden.....my pc shuts down. Power is out on my room and all of my electric equipment is out! Turns out my parents turned of the power to my room because I had my music a bit loud. Not loud enough for them to hear but loud enough for me not to hear them. My mam was apparently standing at the stairs shouting to me to come down to eat. And I didn't respond because I simply couldn't hear her. So instead of calling me on my cel-phone or walking up to my room....my parents decided to cut the power to my room.
As everyone knows cutting the power of a fully operational PC is NOT good for for instance the power supply and besides that I was working on a pic and all the work I had done so far wasn't saved yet! So I went down and asked them WTF was going on and what their reasons were for doing a thing like that! My dad simply replied......"Well son this is what happens if you don't listen to us." I asked him if he was out of fucking mind...deliberately demolishing my stuff like that! To which he answered that he simply didn't care....so we got in to a big argument with me shouting a lot because I was furious about him doing that. The conversation ended with them suggesting that I should get out their house and find a place of my own.....

GODDAMN.....I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! Those bastards! Good thing guns are illegal in our country cause I would have shot them on the spot right there! WTF were they thinking damaging my pc and fucking up my work like that! KANKERLIJERS!!!!!(dutch)!

I know you people have noting to do with this and you don't really care but I just wanted to let it out! And since all my friends are busy either working or something else...I thought I'd just post it here!

[Chimera[NL]]

O ok......yeah this is better for the rant box indeed!

[future man]

Well how old are you dude, if you're old enough to move out why don't you if they do stupid shit like that?

[Smapdey]

My parents are the same way, except that my parents, they're more the unappreciative type. I try my best to help them out, or make them proud, and then nothing. Maybe an insincere "Thanks" every now and then. The worst part is, that if I don't do it, they get pissed. My father is always in Tucson, and my mother is always at work or bitching at me to do something, sometimes I feel like instead of parents, I just have older people that live in the house with me and tell me what to do.

About the computer though, I think that that has to be the biggest seperation point between myself and my parents. They simply hate computers. They don't know much about them, but they find themselves in situations where they have to use them. To make matters worse, they hate it when I'm on the computer, and I'm on the computer a lot. I constantly play games, or write, or read, and it distances me from them, which is a pain in the ass, as it puts even more pressure on all of us, causing more stress on an already strained relationship. I don't think we'd said "I love you" to each other in a month or two.

I constantly sleep just to avoid them. I will stay up all night just so I can have some time to myself.

I don't think my parents are really even proud of me anymore for anything I do. I don't partake in any of the school athletics, I'm only an okay student to them (despite going to the hardest private school in the state, possibly the entire region), I don't think they even know what the fuck I like to do in my spare time anymore.

There's not much of a family in this house, at least not one with me in it. My parents can't name my favorite book, color, TV show, author, nor can they talk about any of my dreams and aspirations.

We were driving through Tucson and my father continually tells me that I should become a radialogist. When I tell him that that's going to incredibly depressing and that I would hate doing any job like that, he gets angry at me for not wanting to help my fellow man. The only reason he suggested it was because he figured I would make a lot of money at it.

I love my parents, but I hate living with them. Nothing is ever good enough. My sisters can do no wrong, I'm just the example fuck-up to them. I carry more responsibilities than most kids my age, acting as a third parent to my little sisters, I help them out constantly, I do all that I can, but nothing is ever good enough, and I sure as fuck ain't getting much thanks for it. Sometimes I think I should just charge them for it.

As for you letting it out, thank you, it allowed me to let it out at the same time. Let all the further flood gates open and lets have a nice bout over our parents.

[Yian]

Chimera, calm down. No big deal. There is no point to tell you not to get pissed, so how about sharing my story with you?

It can be quite long if I go with the details but to sum it all up: my parents are much meaner than your, so no big deal.

I think I was a 1st grader in elementary school and my dad ask me to get a decent grade. WTF!? Like little kids really care about grades and all that, and as you might have guessed, I ignored the "advice". I got a shitty grade and my dad was ready to punish me. He got some of those blue bars for glue gun and beat the shit out of me with those glue bars. It might be illegal in US but it is not a big deal in Taiwan.

Later on for a lot of stupid reasons I got beat all the time. All kind of weird shit you can't even imagine... I think I have some of my dad's creativity now come to think about it. Anyways, there are strange rules in my family that I learned that it was in my family ONLY later on: We have to give our parents absolute respects (my mom found it quite inhuman but she wouldn't dare to piss my dad off either), and we are not allow to shut our doors, which means to shit with the privacy hahahahaha.....

Me and my sister get allowence from my dad. 10 New Taiwanese Dollars everyday. 1 Taiwanese Dollar = 4 cents in US, which means we got 40 cents everyday. Aren't you suprised to learn that I have a Radeon 9700 Pro... No bullshit! Thanks to my mom, who always managed to get some extra from her own pocket so we don't starve to death while at school.

Out entertainment was quite, well, under control. My dad thinks that all the shit out there for teeangers are corruptive to our mind and we never had a chance to have a taste of them. If he find out that we break the rules, he beat the shit out of us. Now get this: I have never ever read a comic book untill I'm 16. Well, and my first comic book wasn't for fun. I was taking a class of how to draw menga and we have to buy these comic books to study and my dad was more than willing to sponser these comic books when he learned that it is for schoolwork. I ended up to have 1500 comic book in my room and my dad bought me a big book shelve to put them.

Then he want to see how well I learned in the class. You might think I screwed up again but no. I did well. I was one of the best menga penciler in my region because I love the shit. My dad was really happy not because it is the first time I have great achievement, but the first time he know that I can actually achieve something. But there was a problem, despite of how popular menga was in Taiwan, we all know damn sure that as long as there are Japanese, we can never be as successful. And Taiwanese, literally Chinese who just freed thmselves from a Imperial system for less than a century, still think that only by studying hard with literatures, politics, or a medical degree is a real scuuessful man, and they didn't give shit about art. That's when my dad decided to send me to America; he heard that America is a lot more "liberal" (which now I think is bullshit) on this kind of stuff.

The night before I leave Taiwan and went on living by myself for the first time, My dad told me his story, which is something no one in my family has heard before...

Shit, my wings are getting cold, talk back to you later.

[RADiator]

Yes there is a certain point in life when you feel the need in place of your own...this is what I did and this is the only advice I can give you Chimera...simply move out.

[Roq]

i moved out because my parents were spying on me all the time

[Chimera[NL]]

yeah I thought about moving out for quite a while now but the only problem is that I don't make a lot of money so that will quite a bitch when I'm on my own! I wanna study and not work fulltime simply to be able to afford my room. So I'm still trying to figure out how to solve this....I even thought about going into the drugsscene as a courier cause a guy I know also has a job like that and he is making quite some money by only moving the shit 2 miles further to some rich guy's house......but I let that idea go when I did a little research and found out what the punishment (legally I mean....the word is centence if I'm not mistaken?) is if I get caught! But reading Yian's story I kinda get thet feeling that my situation isn't as bad as I think it is....

to Smap: I can really relate to your story. My parents are never proud or anything. They think all the shit I do is inferior to the knowledge I have! By that I mean the school I go to now is 2 levels down to what I'm capable of. I'm quite intelligent but soooo damn lazy so I fucked up in the past resulting into going to a lower level school. From that moment on my parents didn't support me in anything I did. I recently got a degree in my ICT education and my parents were bitching about the sixes that were on my list (the list was all 7's and 8's and two sixes) (that's out of a scale from 1 till 10 btw).

And about telling eachother that we love eachother......I haven't said that in over 5 years.

[ghiop]

Yian, wow. I don't envy you those experiences. It's good you can talk about them, though. I know a lot of people just bottle it up and hate their parents but don't tell anyone and it eats them alive.

[Chimera[NL]]

Originally posted by ghiop
Yian, wow. I don't envy you those experiences. It's good you can talk about them, though. I know a lot of people just bottle it up and hate their parents but don't tell anyone and it eats them alive.

And somehow I can also relate to that......the bottling up part that is!

[Smapdey]

I take it out on my parents from time to time. It's all good.

[Hitman]

Hitman reporting for hire.

[WhoGivesARatsAss]

Originally posted by Hitman
Hitman reporting for hire.

LOL HITMAN.. you are sick fucks!..

the reason for discontent with your parents is clearly stated in ur own posts.. comp is evil.. i tell u this.. i know how us kids are busy and all in our own work.. and u think parents dont appreciate u and all.. well moving out is not an option in our country at the least.. after marriage probably when i will have the dough and such.. but considering what u have said..

here is a nice tip for getting along.. since when u will be alone.. it will be fun for abt what 5 months or so.. and then u will miss em.. coz u kids are small.. rad i can understand.. he has a gf and kittens and that keeps company.. living alone sucks donkey balls.. unless u have someone with u.. or a shitload of friends all u would get is lonliness and a pack of vodka every now and again..

ok now for the tip.. just sit with them from time to time.. i am talking like only 30 mins or so.. unless ur parents were crafted by Satan himself.. they will never want ur harm!.. parents are not built this way.. unless ur parent is a whore or dad is a pimp.. u should not worry.. just give em time.. and listen to them when they are asking u.. like come to eat.. I think there is nothing wrong with parents asking u to come to eat..

smapdey i can understand abt the not appreciated part.. but i think u are a brilliant mofo and u need to concentrate on ur studies a bit.. sitting on the comp is not bad and all.. but give em time a little.. it will work out.. unless u have a nice gf.. that is not the whore of the block u ppl shouldnt think abt moving out!..

but thats just me!.. ur mileage will wary..

and if u want some anal probing fun.. there is always HITMAN!.. *damn u are a sick fuck*

[future man]

I had to live with my grandparents once, which was basically alone. I loved it, I didn't have anyone constantly accusing me of smoking or drinking or anything.

[Chimera[NL]]

Well WGARA I understand what you're saying but I also know that the relationship between me and me parents is way beyond that! We've done a lot of talking but that's over now......it's only yelling nowadays. And since I'm kind of an loner I don't think I will miss my parents at all......I can survice both with or without people around me...I just switch to another mode. So to speak offcourse! And if I have enough money, and by that I mean a steady income, I'll move out and cut all connections to my parents. Since I'm their only son, they'll be shit out of luck! Please bear in mind that I'm 20 years old (b-day next week) and I'm very serious about this. This is not some 12 year old bitching about his parents.....this is someone who feels he no longer has any love for his parents....seriously....if someone told me my parents died in an accident or something.....I wouldn't care much about it!

[WhoGivesARatsAss]

Originally posted by Chimera[NL]
if someone told me my parents died in an accident or something.....I wouldn't care much about it!

it would be wise to take these words back!.. since i lost a loved one recently and i know that taking parents for granted is a usual everyday thing.. heck i get pissed at my parents too.. but i know that they love me and its for my own good.. i know u are not a 12 yr old kid.. just settle down for a while and give em some time.. i know parents vary a lot.. and there are indeed bad parents.. but if u cant remember anything GOOD at all since the past year (at the least) abt them.. then i also suggest it is time to move away..

[Chimera[NL]]

Allthough I'm very sorry for you that you recently lost a beloved person I don't think I can take these words back. Ever since I was a kid....I've been quite cold. By that I mean I can easily remove something from my live and not give a shit about it. When my grandpa died....I didn't cry for instance......I felt sorry for the man but it wasn't a reason for me to cry. If a friend of mine does something to me that I don't like (a really serious thing offcourse)....I just ignore that person from that moment on. I'm not gonna talk to that person asking why he did it or something like that. I just remove him or her from my live. Simple.

They way I feel about my parents now is not a recent thing...I feel this way about them for quite some time now. When someone bitches at you time after time you get, how should I put it, well let's just say you don't care about them anymore. That's where I am right now...I just don't care anymore...allthough I let the whole "my parents have to die" concept go.....I still wouldn't care what happened to them. They are simply not as close to me as they were before. It's like asking you if you would care if a person would die that you didn't know.

because that is what my parents are to me now.....strangers.

[WhoGivesARatsAss]

I see.. hope it gets better for the both of you and I am sorry about this hardship that you are facing!.. Lets pray it gets better for both and as you people see fit!

[Chimera[NL]]

Thnx! But don't worry I'll make it through. If not well.....

O and should I ever dissapear of AT....by that I mean not post ever again.....it is probably cause my parents then cut of my Internet connection aswell.....so that you know.

[WhoGivesARatsAss]

lol.. man ever heard of net cafes.. and dont u have internet at school/uni/college u in?!

also man keep it cool with them while u are with them.. really.. i think it should work out.. i know how a person can be insensitive and all that jazz but from what i know abt u on the boards i wouldnt bet on it! ;)

[comlink]

My parents, now that I think of it, are great. I have everything I need, and most of what I want. Of course, never having to do anything on my own means I have no social skills to speak of:)

[Chimera[NL]]

[reaction to WGARA]

Yeah well I may not look cold to you people because here I feel at eas. But if nescesary I can be. And I think this situation requires me to be.

[Chimera[NL]]

I just reread my last post and it kinda looks like I'm trying to give myself a badass reputation or something but that's not what I mean.....all I'm saying is that it takes quite a lot to shake me. If you know what I mean!

[Yian]

I hope you feel better now Chimera... ;)

[Chimera[NL]]

Yeah well....the negatiuve feelings towards my parents will I think always remain but sharing it here did release some pressure. I also talked to some friends of mine and that helped as well.....but still thnx for the comments. It's nice to see that this community is one where you can share this when you feel necessary.

[WhoGivesARatsAss]

dude i am here for u MY MAN!..

* i still dont believe i said that *

[Chimera[NL]]

Oh shit.....you're gonna hug me aren't you? OMG I'm getting out of here!:D

No but seriously...thnx for the support and tips guys!

[ihateyou]

Originally posted by Chimera[NL]
Allthough I'm very sorry for you that you recently lost a beloved person I don't think I can take these words back. Ever since I was a kid....I've been quite cold. By that I mean I can easily remove something from my live and not give a shit about it. When my grandpa died....I didn't cry for instance......I felt sorry for the man but it wasn't a reason for me to cry. If a friend of mine does something to me that I don't like (a really serious thing offcourse)....I just ignore that person from that moment on. I'm not gonna talk to that person asking why he did it or something like that. I just remove him or her from my live. Simple.

They way I feel about my parents now is not a recent thing...I feel this way about them for quite some time now. When someone bitches at you time after time you get, how should I put it, well let's just say you don't care about them anymore. That's where I am right now...I just don't care anymore...allthough I let the whole "my parents have to die" concept go.....I still wouldn't care what happened to them. They are simply not as close to me as they were before. It's like asking you if you would care if a person would die that you didn't know.

because that is what my parents are to me now.....strangers. Ahaa! Shoot a man you have to pick up the body, Although somhow you children seem to be so pumped up on hormones That the killing and the blood spray happens to be fun, I think thats just video games, You like burning people with a flame througher, Look at there chared corpses intwined in a steering wheel and now lets see how much fun it is!